During the first 2 years of my business, I had a toxic investor.
The type of person who was a 'partner' when they needed something, and an 'investor' when I needed something.
It was terrible for my mental health and destroyed the joy in what I was doing.
I would dread having to update them on how the business was doing.
Even when I thought I was doing well, they found a way to bring me down.
I would ask for help, not get it, make a mistake, and then be shit on for making the mistake.
The best word to describe most of the interactions is 'belittling'.
For example:
"If you think that only two years of hard work gives you the right or ability to think that you can change the partnership just because you don’t like how the partnership is at this stage... you are gravely mistaken."
"If you feel this is too much for you then I will find somebody that can come in and run the company..."
"I don’t need to remind you that you have a fiduciary obligation to me... be careful."
"Your lack of understanding of having a partner and what it takes to build a business or how much effort it takes surprises me..."
And those are from only two emails... now imagine two years.
So I finally built the courage to take action.
I first sent an email expressing my concerns and asking to have a conversation about the future.
I was met with some of the worst belittlement to date.
It was at that moment that I knew I was done. I couldn't do it anymore.
I only had one choice:
Walk away or offer to buy them out.
But the thought of walking away was terrifying.
In hindsight, I think that's what kept me in the toxic partnership for so long.
When I retired from racing bikes, I lost my identity. It was hard.
And now it was looking like that would happen all over again.
I built this business. It was doing well. I finally reinvented myself.
And now I may have to walk away again.
But the pain of walking away was less than what I was feeling day to day.
So I had my lawyer send a letter with a 2-week shot clock on my resignation if they would not agree to let me buy them out.
They did NOT like that I was finally standing up for myself. And with people that could back me up.
And then the wait began...
It was the final day without any resolution, and it looked like I was going to have to walk away.
I remember when the clock hit the deadline at 5 pm and that was it.
We didn't hear back. I was going to have to walk.
It was the worst feeling ever. I couldn't believe it.
I just remember thinking:
I built this company. I did my absolute best. I'm trying to go about this as fair as possible. And somehow I'm going to have to walk.
It was totally demoralizing.
But then an email came through...
We had a buyout number. And one that I could stomach.
In March 2019 I regained 100% control of my company. It was finally over.
I was proud that I finally stood up for myself, but I didn't do it soon enough.
For a long time, I knew things weren't right in my gut.
But I learned so many lessons:
1. Listen to your gut. Your mind with rationalize, and your heart will lead you in many directions, but your gut will tell you what to do.
2. Show, don't tell. People will tell you how helpful they are, but find a way to verify what they say.
3. Never get into business with someone that says: 'Wouldn't you rather have a smaller piece of a big pie.'
It's been quite some time since this all went down and I'd love to say that those two years are behind me, but there are scars.
But what I've learned is that when you have the right partners, these things don't happen.
I'm extremely fortunate to have an incredible group of investors and partners around me today.
When I deliver bad news, they're there to help and offer support. Not belittle me.
Q2 was a tough quarter for us, and I had to send an update that I was dreading.
It brought up all the feelings I had during the early part of my career.
But I was met with different responses this time:
"You’re never alone in this. I hope you know that."
"I’m as confident in you and the business as day one."
"Onward and upward!"
If I'm honest, I teared up getting these responses.
It was SO different than what I experienced in the past.
I'm thankful for my past and present. It's been an incredibly rewarding journey.
Onward and upward! 🫡