think about it this way - it can't get worse
rarely people are a failure, they're just yet to succeed (pre success).
you have a few choices from here, either give up, or accept where you are (pre success) and continue.
after many years it may help to reframe the situation
fall in love with the process, find a way to chase joy rather than the idea of success, hopefully those two things are aligned
good luck king 🕊️