It hurts to say this but... I'm taking a break from AWC. No, this is not an April fool's joke, the universe simply likes to troll me with timing.
Over the last year it's been more and more difficult to compete when dealing with roster changes, end of friendships, stream/wow identity crises. Despite feeling exhausted and like everything was an uphill battle, we had back to back seasons of getting to the finals and coming up short. I've been pushing through what I think is me experiencing burnout, while also having this period of grief for a chapter of my life closing. With Pika now stepping away from AWC this season, The original The Move RPS was down to two people. Myself, and Wizk. I was debating playing this season for months, knowing Pika might decide to leave, and still feeling the desire and urge to play.
The last few weeks, however, I've been having this dreadful feeling every time I log onto the game to practice and prepare. I can't focus, I'm uncomfortable, and I can't get rid of this overwhelming pressure of not wanting to be there, despite trying to convince myself to play. For the sake of my own well-being and mental health, and the sake of the new team, I've decided to take this season off. I don't want to hold anyone back from getting the result they want if I'm feeling like my heart and mind aren't in it. I think I've needed a break for years now, but the feeling has become too much to ignore... it feels like now is the right time.
Even though I plan to be back, it makes me sad to know a chapter of my life has ended. It was quite the emotional conversation with Wizk as we've been such a strong duo for over 8 years now. I'm wishing him the best this season, along with Ceralium & Fuse. I want nothing more than to see him take gold, he truly deserves it.
Thank you to all the move fans who have supported me & the team for 7 years running, I can't imagine my life without this amazing community we've built.