I have my father's nose and all his rage, but I have my mother's face and her grief. Rage, I have learned to wear. My mother's grief, however, folds my spine and lives beneath my ribs. It gets heavier and heavier.
Being a person didn't come naturally to me the way it seemed to for others. People who were sure of themselves awed me. I studied them and tried to mimic their ease.
I don't want to beg. I know you can feel it, my longing, the aching, my need for love. I don't want to beg. But oh godā Oh god, please. Please. Love me. Love me.
I am eternally, devastatingly romantic, and I thought people would see it because āromanticā doesnāt mean āsugary.ā Itās dark and tormented ā the furor of passion, the despair of an idealism that you canāt attain.
You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves. Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine. Meanwhile, the world goes on.
Before I die, I want to be somebody's favourite hiding place, the place they can put everything they know they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I will keep it safe. I will keep it safe.
To say we were 'in love', that vague weakened phrase, cannot express it. We loved each other, we lived in each other, through each other, by each other. We were each other.
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My father is a good man. Sort of. He is good when I compare him to His own father, and thatās enough. I hope. My father and I are more alike than Iād care to admit, and whenever I feel Pure rage, I know I am my fatherās daughter.
My feelings for you are biblical; that is they are intense, reckless, arrogant, risky and unconcerned with the way of the world. I flaunt my bleeding wounds, madden with my certainty.
I long for you; I who usually longs without longing, as though I am unconscious and absorbed in neutrality and apathy, really, utterly long for every bit of you.
I could recognize him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world.