I've been getting a lot of msg's checking up on me since the Hytale cancellation, so I feel you deserve an update from me.
I've invested a significant amount of time and energy into prep work, and held off important life and career decisions anticipating working on Hytale projects. I'm obviously devastated, and the coming weeks will be very difficult for me to process.
I've already been at a low point with my mental health (loneliness, isolation, burnout, etc...) and this event really made me stop and reconsider what it is I want to do on the internet. I realized how much I miss regularly streaming, talking with chat, reading comments, especially getting approached by you awesome ppl in person at events like VidCon.
With that said, there's no more "survive until Hytale". I'm done prepping, being strung along, "investing" in some unconfirmed longterm content goal. I'm going to make what I want when I want, and that means I'll be experimenting more soon, and much more frequently than 1 video per month. Content Creation makes me happy, but it can't be tied up in the anxiety and avoidance that "Survive until Hytale" gave me.
I'm still navigating my personal issues, especially with dating (lmao) and my social life in general. More than anything I want to be invited to hang-outs and contribute to a friend group that I see on a regular basis (weekly?). Shout-out to my VidCon group, this past week has genuinely done so much good for my mental health, simply being with people I vibe with makes me feel so much better, alive again. My issue though, is that VidCon only happens once per year. Are there any CC's from the Tampa FL area down to chill? I just can't take another year of the isolation I felt in 2024.
Thanks for checking up on me. I know I'm not great at initiating or reaching out but I do always enjoy hearing back from old friends, please don't give up on me if I don't respond right away <3