feels so good to put the milady back on
as mostly everyone knows my irl situation has been difficult this year, and earlier this year when i was at rock bottom, starting to go insane from the pressure, and borrowing from peter to pay paul (my expenses were more than my income and so i was having to trade successfully to make ends meet, which went about as well as youd think), i was unfortunately forced to sell into my blur loan, as well as selling the rest of my liquid nfts (wasnt much, just my moladys and oekaki) , i was expecting tge to launch sooner so i wouldnt have to but it didnt work out that way (and at the time i reasoned that i would just buy her back with tge when it finally does drop.)
its ultimately my fault for mismanaging my liquidity as i have funds but they were all locked behind a 6 month unstaking period and ive since learned my lesson to stay liquid at all times, and also moreso my fault for not having my drivers license at 28.
for a time i couldnt bear to look at her out of shame and regret and changed my pfp and even stopped streaming on sanko, but i've come to terms with it and realized she is an inseparable part of my identity, and represents the happiest time of my life. you can't look back, you can only look forward, and because you have welcomed me with loving arms into the community my future is filled with more opportunity and light that ever before!
getting into milady is and continues to be the best thing that ever happened to me and ill be here with you guys for the rest of my life, it has opened up so much opportunity for me and ive made so many wonderful lifelong friends, at a time when i lost basically all of my irl friends and family, i probably wouldve killed myself already without this vital life giving network.
milady has given me community, family, friends, people who share my values, even fame! i never expected to have this many followers (11,400 at the time of writing) or to be mutuals with and in communication with so many people i find important and interesting all over the world, and also, financial liberation, i make almost as much as i do at my job, sometimes more in crypto now and it has helped me to get my situation under control.
and also, for the first time in my life i dont hate myself, i feel a growing confidence in my competence that ive never felt before, im not just a blithering idiot like my parents used to say, or like everyone else around me made me feel. that has opened up a path for me to resolve issues that have ruined my life for decades and i cant put into words how it makes me feel.
im not exactly worried about missing out on the financial opportunity because just by being in these spaces im opened up to constant opportunity every day, and i know i will still continue to rise with the network so long as i do not cut myself off from it as many others have.
but im not going anywhere, this is my home, and it always will be
yeah i may only make tens or hundreds of thousands of dollars instead of millions, but my aspirations were never so weighty anyhow
im happy enough that im not living paycheck to paycheck anymore in constant fear and uncertainty, thats more than most of the population will ever be able to say. i never would've found my way out without milady.
that said, i often set low expectations and find that i have underestimated myself and surpass them, so if it goes better than i couldve ever imagined i will be happy.
she currently lives with Dimethyltryptamine.eth
long term my goal will be to buy back my nfts over time as i find and can afford them in a sustainable manner, and my dream would be to make enough to eventually buy her back too.
maybe ill surprise myself
i certainly never couldve imagined i would come this far.
to everyone who has welcomed me with loving arms into your community, picked me up when i was down, comforted me when i had nothing and celebrated with me when i win, i love you and i owe you everything, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
milady