My future w apex/streaming:
I’ve always been a competitor at heart coming from competing in COD. I was dropped right before the first major lan in BO4 in 2018. I had turned 18 as well making me eligible to pursue being a pro etc. but being dropped after working insane hours coming home to scrim made me super depressed. so I gave up on the COD dream and went to college in ‘19 after taking a leap year straight out of HS.
Feb 2019 apex came out. I had alot of pressure from my parents because they spent alot of money so I could chase what my dream once was, being a football player. Once Apex came out tho I was addicted & just started hard grinding leaderboards. You know how crazy that gets (iykyk). Football season came around & I kinda fell out of the whole gaming grind. I quickly realized that I was making really good traction and growing my stream one day at a time with this apex thing tho & it ignited my passion again to pursue gaming.
I only continued to play apex because I wanted to compete one day. The more I got involved in apex the more I grew & realized how hard not only being a pro was but how hard it is to actually succeed in pro league which kinda threw me in a content creator circle. It blurred my vision bc I was having so much success w it but that was never my true passion. As I said earlier I’m a competitor at heart. I also quickly realized that comp in a BR is insanely different. For EX. imagine being in the tournament of your life and taking a 50/50 off drop and not getting a gun and dying. Its so hard to play a game where the game itself decides your fate & you don’t. Not the kinda competition I drool over tbh.
I went from playing to coaching to managing the comp team “BLVKHVND” I did a good job. Bringing in shooby yaz and having them play with goat to later on bringing in diffq. We did amazing and I did everything I could to make that roster successful but things happen.
I left HVND and went solo, started to gain more traction bc now I’m focused on my own content and not putting so much energy into a comp team / org so I started growing myself more again and it was nice to get the recognition after kinda going ghost on content for a while. HoF took notice and offered me a 3 month contract which is ending in July.
I was signed to them as a CC which is something I had to adapt to. With HoF I wanted to manage the comp teams like I did for HVND but we ended up not signing anyone from pro league and sticking it out with the female team. I could’ve attempted to take the role of coaching them but that’s not something I wanna do anymore. I wanna be able to control what happens, not be a teacher & felt like that’s where my ceiling was in apex.
Anyways about moving on,
@PlayXDefiant is releasing at the end of the summer. I played the beta and I felt the crackhead addiction reignite and it’s something that I plan on full sending to go pro in. With all the knowledge and skill I’ve gained playing apex (one of, if not the hardest FPS to ever come out) I plan on going hard from day 1 and proving that I still have so much competitiveness left in me. My grind has always been unmatched when I’m passionate about a game. I wanna be one of the best and I’m willing to sacrifice a lot to get there. This will be my last chance to ever prove it.
All in all if it doesn’t go out as planned I will be retiring the streams etc and just moving forward with life. All throughout the years I’ve met some amazing people/players some I can call really good friends of mine forever. I’m insanely thankful and blessed for everything that I was able to achieve within the last 4 years and wouldn’t give it up for nothing. I really do love y’all mfs. I can promise you tho I will work so hard and prove to people what I can do. If you read all this, that means you care and for that thank you!💚