Taking a step back from the Warzone Community:
It is 1AM, Sunday morning while I write this. It has been a really rough weekend for me. Everything I've believed in turns out to be a lie and my world has been shifted upside down.
A lot of you have known about my battle with addiction. Almost 2 years ago, I almost died. I stepped away from a toxic life and found in the Warzone community purpose. I have thought for the past 2 years that I could do good and that would rectify and cover for all the mistakes I've done along the way. Unfortunately, I am still paying for all the mistakes I've made.
The Warzone Community gave me purpose for so long, I never wanted a dime off anyone or clout, just to have real impact and create real change, however it has now become my trigger. This wasn't a business for me, like it is for so many people that monetize you. The Warzone Community puts horrible people on a pedestal and treats people with good intentions horribly.
The toxicity in this community has ruined everything I have worked for in the last 2 years. There is no loyalty, there are no morals, no human decency.
In the past 2 years, I have relapsed multiple times including this weekend. This weekend, I thought about taking my own life. I reached a point where I thought I just couldn't breathe anymore. I wrote a goodbye note to my family. I didn't want to live anymore with all this pain. I don't think I've ever felt that low before and I need to get help.
I have spent the past week making amends with the people I believe I was unfair to or have done wrong, I hope you all forgive me for my mistakes, as I am not perfect.
This community is a blessing and a curse and unfortunately it is no longer my fight. You've drained the soul out of me. I don't know how long I will be gone for or if forever, weeks, months, I don't know, but it is needed in order for me to survive.
I hope this community finds love, acceptance, understanding and fairness. I hope you fight the fake, the cheaters, the real bigots. A lot of people depend on me and I have tried my best to leave you all in good hands. To the ones I love, most have my contact outside of twitter or DM me for it, I love you all, it is time for me to take care of myself now.
Till one day, take care. Sami