Mental Health Update & Streaming Break (TL;DR at the bottom)
Hey everyone, first off, I want to apologize for being less active on Twitch and Twitter over the second half of the year. I haven’t been upfront with myself or with you about the challenges I’ve been facing. Talking openly about mental health isn't easy for me, even though I know how important it is. I hope this is the only time I’ll need to post something like this, but I feel it’s necessary so no one thinks I’m quitting or giving up.
This year has been incredibly tough for me, for a number of reasons. I’ve been dealing with a lot of personal struggles, and it’s been taking a toll. On top of that, I’ve been working non-stop, and when I’m not being productive, I get hard on myself. It's been a bad cycle—feeling like I need to push through and work, but not having the mental energy to do so, which just adds more stress because I feel like I’m letting myself (and you) down.
I recently moved into a new apartment, which is exciting but also adds more pressure. Last night, I came to the realization that I need to officially take a break to focus on getting better, without the added stress of worrying about streaming. I’ve never taken an official break from Apex since starting my career over five years ago, so I think this is long overdue.
I’m not retiring or disappearing for good. I’ll still be around—answering messages on Discord, posting on Twitter, and staying in touch. But I’m announcing a TBD break from streaming for now. I’ll likely find my way back once scrims start, but I don’t want to set that as an expectation just yet.
TL;DR
It’s been a tough year, and I’ve been feeling stressed and burnt out. I’m taking a break from streaming to focus on my mental health but will still be active on Discord and Twitter.