It brings me so much joy to unveil organizÅ: an online forum for sharing organizational tools & resources to support scientific operations and mentoring. Seeing @organizolife come to life is beyond anything I could have dreamed. I guess Iām a founder now!
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Being told by grant reviewers that my "recent productivity
has declined" during a global pandemic has me concerned for the future of science and especially worried for early career scientists.
Iām a woman married to a pediatrician and we donāt want kids. We donāt owe anyone our reasoning.
We are tired of people telling us we will change our minds. You may just be trying to be playful, but it comes off as disrespectful and hurtful. Plz stop⦠š«
When I choose to interview a candidate for a position in our lab, I share the list of interview questions that will guide my conversation with them ahead of time. Why? Because I want the interview to be equitable for all candidates - everyone gets the same questions⦠andā¦
Itās time to peel back the curtains of the struggles of a #NewPI trying to find her way. I was invited to interview for an award that was a great match for my research. Here is me cheesing before the interview⦠Little did I know how quickly would change... [long] š§µ
I find it so disturbing that applicants are concerned about not having publications when applying to graduate school and that some schools weigh this criteria heavily. This inadvertently penalizes talented scientists from circumstances that donāt align with publishing.
Another grant rejected today. I canāt catch a f*cking break lately. Feeling overwhelmed, disorganized, and like Iām letting everyone (including myself) down lately. Just a day in the life of a PI still trying to figure out how to be a PI.
A casual mentee received this comment on their grad student fellowship app: "Weaknesses: 10+ years of research experience, but publication record is relatively sparse with 3 first author publications lower-tier journals."
This comment is so unfair & damaging. I can't.
Reviewer comment: āIt is recommended that the PI include in the proposal a collaborator who is an expert in bone marrow imaging.ā
What the actual f*ck? I am the expert in bone marrow imaging! š¤Æš¤Æš¤Æ
How do you respond to a comment like this?
We decided the best way to incorporate advice from Twitter into the lab is to print the tweets and put them by the relevant pieces of equipment #TheLabEdit
Any random lab wisdom? Real, surreal, and unreal guidance accepted.
Thanks for the PCR machine advice, @BStevensonLab
Sometimes I feel so out of place in academia. I am not cut from the cloth - I do not have academics in my family. Iām here because I worked my tail off, but it was not a logical path. This comes with a lot of pride and a lot of shame. Itās uncomfortable. #FirstGen
Big news... we got a major grant ā¤ļøš° I found out while in a meeting at ISEH, so I sobbed briefly in the hallway outside a conference room. So relieved/happy/excited. Thanks to all who helped, especially the talented scientists in our lab who made these ideas a reality!
I am thrilled to announce I will be joining the Clinical Research Division @fredhutch as an Assistant Professor! It is surreal to say the Termini Lab will open in Spring of 2022. Thank you to those who supported me ā I look forward to joining such a vibrant scientific community!
I was not kidding when I told you it's a roller coaster š¢I couldn't be more excited that the Reviewers enjoyed our vision, especially after hitting some #NewPI turbulence. Looking forward to diving into new niche-related research questions very soon š¦“ā£ļøā¢ļø
Something for the lab arrived in the mail yesterday⦠one of the perks of being the daughter of a woodworker is that my dad can make anything. So proud to put this art up in front of our space #TheLabEdit#NewPI#FirstGen
I love being a PI, but this job comes with a sense of loneliness I never felt as a student or postdoc. I am thankful for my support system of family, mentors, and colleagues, but no one can fully understand the daily challenges. Iām pretty sure this is normal, just unexpected.
Assuming that people getting excellent positions when they leave a lab is because they received excellent mentorship from their PI is a big assumption. Many get these positions DESPITE abusive, toxic, or absent mentorship.
Just a #NewPI posing in the hallway with our newest arrival, the microscope. She really makes the lab feel complete. #TheLabEdit
I canāt wait to share the beauty of fluorescence microscopy with our team. What should we name the scope?
2022 was a wild year of perhaps my darkest and brightest moments:
āļøLeaving my postdoc to start my dream job as an Assistant Professor
āļøMoving out of our shitty LA apartment and buying a house
āļøFinally seeking help to salvage my mental health
āļøGetting my 1st grant as a prof
Iāve said it before and lāll say it again, neglect is a form of trainee abuse.
If you donāt have the bandwidth to effectively mentor, donāt take trainees.
And if you see neglect, donāt say itās due to busy PIs or big labs - thatās excusing bad behavior & discounting the trainee
This $1,300 bill is enough for me to never see a therapist again. Feeling so defeated, confused, and wondering why institutions make it so hard for postdocs to take care of themselves. Throwing a National Postdoc Week BBQ does not resolve these issues!
My research stands on its own, independent of my parentsā level of education. Iām not going to play their game to get money... But if you know of a donor who might want to fund a PI who stood up for herself and others to come and is paying the price, send them my way.
I knew this would eventually happen... my seminar announcement says Christina Termini, M.D., Ph.D. instead of M.M., Ph.D.
My Master of Music degree in flute performance isn't going to help anyone during a medical emergency. A musical emergency, however... š¤
Not sure why I need to say this⦠but itās not funny/cool to make a joke about the PI of a lab looking like an undergrad when you know damn well Iām the PI of the lab.
1) Undergrads can be any age
2) This is what a PI looks like
3) Would you make the same joke to a dude PI?
My last tweet was super dark so Iām going to cleanse by sharing with absolute joy that I received my first grant as an Assistant Professor š itās an exciting relief to have secured some bags. Thanks to my lab for holding it down while I hibernated to write. More deets to come š°
Week 3: a systematic approach⦠reducing confusion about what goes where or the source/identity of items. I designed labels that can be easily edited, printed, laminated, and adhered to surfaces with magnetic tape. Easy to move around as we settle into the space #TheLabEdit
I am begging (white) men in positions of power to PLEASE request/demand gender equality of the speaker population before you agree to speak at seminars, symposiums, and panels. I just want to lead my lab & work on my grant, but rn I feel so defeated by the fight for inclusionšš¢
My pet peeve: when folks go over on time for a talk. Itās not even about how this gets the session behind⦠itās b/c this act indicates that you think your research is more important than others. The job of moderators is to step in but power dynamics can complicate this š«
I was asked yesterday if my identity has ever made me feel isolated in science. I said yes, but when asked to elaborate, I declined. I often feel pressured to share about this stuff and it weighs heavily on me. It felt good to set a boundary to protect my peace.
Resubmitting a grant during the pandemic was a challenge and would not have been possible without the support of my family, colleagues, and mentors... but I'm happy to report my K01 got a perfect score this time around! š¾š¬ā¢ļøš¬
Life got kind of murky during my postdoc and I neglected my hobbies. I am reclaiming my joy and bringing music back into my life. Major thanks to the Seattle Piano Recycling Program for dropping off this baby (grand). My childhood dreams have come true.
Several people said our labsā inventory and purchasing worksheet was just me reinventing Quartzy⦠well⦠I guess now itās just a free and homegrown version of Quartzy š happy to share! šø
Just got the email from @Quartzy that we will have to pay $159/month for the database functions that have been free for the last 10+ years. I still have the email from Jan 2016 that reads: āWhat the future holds: Quartzy is and always will be free for scientistsā šš¤¬š
What a day⦠our NCI R21 was just awarded! And I am SO proud to be on this all Latinx co-PI team ā¤ļø
Looking forward to digging into how radioimmunotherapy regulates the bone marrow niche 𦓠ā¢ļø
My lab barely exists but I have recruited two incredibly talented postdocs to join. I recently traversed the good, the bad, and the pandemic of a postdoc myself... postdoc candidates need to be sure they will be supported and respected. Show this when you're recruiting them.
šGrant rejected.
š„³A month later, the agency emails to say they procured additional funds and will fund us!
šAnother month later, the agency emails to say they actually will NOT fund us... again.
Y'all are playing with my emotions over here.
Yesterday I was told my grant application was going to be disqualified, but with the swift action of the staff here at Fred Hutch, we fixed the issue⦠and then today, I learned funding is now pending! The roller coaster is so realš¢š°ā„ļø I am so grateful for my team!
Another grant rejection today, but we will keep moving ahead. I think Iām 0 for 5 for grants this year? Iām here to keep it real for those struggling to get a project funded. Itās rough, but I look forward to reworking the ideas with new data and trying again.
As a postdoc, my advisor never read any of my proposals...ever. I missed out on an entire era of learning how to write grants I should have had as a trainee.
Am I mad? Yes.
Am I getting even by pouring myself into teaching the folks in our lab how to write? Also, yes.
There were days during my postdoc when I would drive to work, sit in the garage, and drive right back home because my anxiety left me immobilized. I'm super proud of how far I've come. This job is hard, but I've never been more fulfilled - so thankful for my colleagues and team.
As a person with anxiety, I know how stressful an interview is. Knowing the questions always made me more relaxed and I could think thoughtfully about my answers beforehand instead of being tested for whether I could think of a good example of x, y, or z on the spot.
Congratulations to @nj_setiawan on publishing your first author article in @Nature today. Super proud of all you have done to make our lab a welcoming environment for rigorous and reproducible research.
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It usually goes like this:
Q: Do you have kids?
A: Nope.
Q: Oh, youāll have them soon
A: We donāt want kids
Q: youāll change your mind.
A: š¤·š½āāļø
Anyone else have this convo over and over? I guess, one day Iāll get old enough that itāll stopā¦?
Thereās a misconception that all women in academia support women in academiaā¦. False. Some of the most toxic and sexist academics Iāve ever met are women. Itās bonkers, but IYKYK.
Itās impossible for me to keep my head down and just do science, but I do understand why people do that. Speaking out against bias or harassment comes at an enormous emotional and professional price. Iām paying it today.
If I wrote a book recounting toxic lab tales and what I've learned along the way, would you read it? ā£ļøšš„¼
[I'm being serious. I want to get some of this stuff out of my system and think writing might do the trick.]
Technician from lab of PI with an endowed chair, multiple R01s, and hundreds of papers emails me to ask for help writing their own letter of support for grad school.
I have a purple armchair, 0 R01s, and 1 paper from my lab. I am a good mentor, though & they could be, too.
Salary increases are coming soon at Fred Hutch (yay) but will cost me ~$200,000 over 3 years in unanticipated expenses. PIs want to pay people more, but this is going to be difficult to balance without institutional support. If I knew this, I would have negotiated differently.
Negotiating a faculty position can be confusing. Here, as a group of new faculty members, we pull back the curtains to explain nuances, identify negotiable components, and build a framework for the process of negotiation based on our recent experiences.
authors.elsevier.com/a/1gDYRā¦
A friendly reminder that PIs make mistakes: we miscommunicate, we botch mentoring interactions, we f*ck up⦠but we can also grow and change and have the opportunity become better mentors. Iām happy today but itās been a journey to feel like I know what Iām doing.
I've loved sharing #NewPI & #TheLabEdit journeys with everyone, but it comes at a cost. Being consistently mocked by people on this app for my mere existence hurts. As a person with mental health struggles, it makes me question why I'm putting myself through this.
The way people excuse bad behavior in academia is one of the hardest things to grapple with.
āOh, thatās just how he isā
āThey didnāt mean it like thatā
Or worse⦠[SILENCE]
This culture where people are reluctant to hold each other accountable is debilitating.
#TheLabEdit pro tip: color coding š Ever wondered where your pipette went? We have a system for that. Each station is numbered (1A-4B), given a unique color (red here), and stocked with color-marked items. People can still move things around as needed but everything has a home.
Week 2: Termini Lab essentials kit.
Itās the worst when you need to inject mice and you forgot a hair tie, or have dry hands after an intense day of pulling bones, or have a headache but youāre running a time course. We have a drawer of things (and snacks) for those days.
We hate it when you ask why we donāt want them or say we would be great parents. The reason I include my husbandās profession is because he gets asked about this at work every single day multiple times a day. Be respectful of peoples decisions, yāall.
Yes - the Termini Lab cell culture cart is extremely cute⦠but itās also ultra functional. Not all cell culture spaces have cabinets where you need them. Getting a cart can bring those essentials within an arms reach without taking up much space. I love it! #TheLabEdit#NewPI
I receive lots of emails and requests everyday, but I always make time for the people in my lab. They are why I do the job.
Mentee neglect is not a mentoring style, itās a form of abuse. As a community, we must intervene when we see neglect; neglect can destroy careers.
Happy official 2nd birthday, Termini Lab! Once upon a time, you were empty⦠now, youāre full of ideas, joy, labels, and so much energy.
Advice for incoming PIs: be patient, listen, and reflect. You wonāt always get it right, but learning and adjusting will help ā¤ļø
My husband texted to ask how it went, and my response was āI deserve a f*cking Oscar for not losing my sh*tā. I called my mom to talk about it, and she said, āwhat the f*ck does my education have to do with your lab?ā, and she was spot on.
Waking up to our manuscript being invited for resubmission with extremely minor revisions was the energy boost I needed. This job is a rollercoaster... but the ride broke down for a little bit there. Let's keep it moving onward and upward š¢ #NewPI
I am losing my freaking mind right now⦠my screen was just installed in my office so now we can cast data from our computers during meetings instead of squinting at a laptop screen⦠PI DREAM COME TRUE!!! #TheLabEdit#NewPI šŗ š§« š
I cannot recall any professor during my grad training discussing mental health in general (how they preserve their mental health, their own struggles, etc.). This made me feel like I was not cut out for this line of work for a long time, so I "hid" my anxiety for a long time.
Never in my wildest thoughts did I imagine 5,000 people would follow me but I reached that number this week. Thanks for joining me on this #NewPI and #TheLabEdit journey. It was picture day at work yesterday so here is the new face behind tweets šø
New lab, new house, new vibes. My husband and I have been living like nomads for a long time while we pursued our training in academic research and medicine. It feels so good to be able to finally put down some roots that will hopefully last more than a few years šŖ“ š²
Another day, another grant rejected ššš
I am 1/6 for full proposals funded this year. You get used to the rejection quickly.
I have 6 more full apps awaiting decisions (total of 12 submitted this year as PI). Fingers crossed!
Giving an inclusive research presentation means presenting enough background to get audience members on the same page. Walk people through the data - donāt assume anyone knows what theyāre looking at on your graphs.
Summary: Less data, more background.
I know itās not supposed to be personal, but the grant reviewers telling me I need to include experts really get to me.
Iāll play the game and add these consultants. But when will I be enough? Or seen as capable? Why canāt I be the expert?
Feeling defeated today.
Wow, 11K followers! Thanks for joining me on this wild journey. To all who have offered support and advice: thank you. I aim to provide a candid perspective of what itās like to try to āmake itā in this biz. Itās honestly the best job in the world, but has lots of challenges.
Once youāve been through a f*cked up mentoring relationship, itās hard to act ānormalā and go about your career. This job is particularly hard because you canāt ever really escape the triggers. Theyāre everywhere.
While I'm disappointed to have been rejected from the HHMI Freeman Hrabowski Program, it doesn't discount what I've accomplished to make science a more diverse, equitable, and inclusive environment. I know many more who do this critical work when no one is watching - I see you.
Persistence is the name of the game. Amid disappointment and failure, the tally for grants awarded this year is now n=3 š¤Æ
This comes from n=7 not funded, 1 withdrawn š”, & 3 undecided. I get the grants I almost donāt submit, so donāt let yourself get in your own way.
I love mentoring, but itās frustrating when I am asked to do the mentoring that another PI is supposed to be doing. Why? Because I feel awful when I canāt take on another mentee because I myself am overwhelmed. I know theyāre coming to me for help, sometimes as a last resort.
Lab warming: a celebration of the occupancy of a new lab.
Please join us next week for the Termini Lab warming. I am looking forward to meeting more of our neighbors and introducing you to our amazing team. Seriously, come by to check us out! #TheLabEdit#NewPI
ALT Person holding piece of paper with the text āLab, sweet lab. Please join us for the Termini Lab Warming. Friday July 22 D2-275 3-5 pm. Come meet the team! Pipettes. Labels. Snacks. Merch. Funā
Well... it's official! My K01 was awarded by the NIDDK. Resubmitting during the pandemic was complicated but with the support of my family, friends, and mentors, we did it š
Proteoglycans are absolutely fascinating - can't wait to explore them further in hematopoietic injury!
Itās no secret that I suffer from anxiety and in this line of work, it seems unavoidable. I appreciate everyoneās support as I clumsily learn how to be good at my job. Iām here to start discussions that will help us improve the scientific ecosystem. Iām still smiling tho!
Mentors LOVE receiving emails from mentees about recent accomplishments (interviews, awards, acceptances). Please keep the updates (which are the best form of fuel) coming! š„¹
It has now been four months of back and forth between various higher-ups about what happened. After much reflection, I decided to withdraw my application from further consideration. I canāt take money from an agency with values that directly conflict with mine.